From Corporate Chaos to Spiritual Serenity

This episode touches on navigating personal challenges, financial uncertainty, and a newfound sense of faith. Tune in for highlights on the importance of community, resilience, and the transformative power of embracing change!

• Exploring the impact of life transitions on mental health 
• Sharing personal experiences of financial anxiety and joy 
• Recounting the journey from religious trauma to spiritual awakening 
• Discussing the role of community and support during difficult times 
• Emphasizing the significance of faith in overcoming adversity 
• Announcing upcoming coaching opportunities and events

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Transcript

Financial Struggles and Personal Growth

Speaker 1 0:21

Hello and welcome back to a brand new episode of A Spectrum of Hyperfixations . I am your host , miss T . Today , the T oh goodness , what do we want it to stand for ? Time to get back into podcasting ? How about that ?

Speaker 1 0:38

So new year , it's been a while . Um , it's been a while . Let's just address that up front . Um , I kind of fell out of it after everything happening with my grandpa and the surprise trip to Colorado . I ? Um was on a leave of absence from work at that time and then I just didn't go back .

Speaker 1 1:05

So well , let's just go in then to the cheers and jeers . So cheers is I am feeling pretty joyful . I'm going into this new year without a steady income , without a corporate job , without any sort of like financial security other than having cashed out my 401k that I can live off of for , you know , a few months , but I have felt so good and joyful and it's it's been really great for my mental health and , I just think , my health overall . So , jeers in turn is the lack of financial stability . Things are a bit scary . My credit cards , have you know , they went off the rails , and so I got in the mail this thing for , like Kansas residents , you could qualify for debt settlement or whatever , and so I went ahead and decided to go for that . I kind of do about debt settlement stuff from working in debt collections , but that was more medical , but they're supposed to , you know , act on my behalf , get settlements from my creditors to pay less than what I owe , and they instructed me not to make a payment in December and not to make payments going forward , and so it's been really scary because I rarely missed a payment in all my years of having a credit card . I may have missed one or two , but then I paid it just like a day after . So going on the second month of not making payment , it's really terrifying . It does not feel good . A couple of the creditors have been calling daily and my first payment for the settlement company came out January 2nd . Second , and I don't think they're doing anything until maybe the second or third month , and so it's just , it's very uncomfortable spot because yeah , I'm just , I'm very much , you know , routine , do the right thing , that kind of stuff . So this feels like I'm really like I'm a bad person , I guess , for not paying my bills . But I want to , I definitely want to . It'll happen at some point , but , yeah , my credit is just getting wrecked right now , so that's happening . That's Jeers . The Jeers is all financial related .

Speaker 1 4:06

My life is actually pretty great right about now . Like I said , been on leave since October , so if I do find a job , it's going to be very , very difficult to get back into . I have been loving the slow , late start mornings where I have gotten deeper in faith , and so the first thing in the morning I do is I get my cup of coffee and I sit down on the couch with my daily devotionals . I read that , I look at the scripture of the day in the YouVersion Bible app , and it's been really great to connect with God that way . And I call him God . You can call him whatever you'd like , but it's having that . That's what's been bringing me joy , I think , is committed faith and trust that it will be okay and if I continue to be guided to what he's calling me to do and I feel that that is life coaching and speaking then he will provide and he will take care and , like I said , it's terrifying because I don't have any sort of like regular income right now , but we are keeping the faith in leaning into his joy and , um , I might as well . Just maybe that's what the topic will be today is just kind of my testimony .

Speaker 1 5:39

So I grew up Mormon . I grew up Mormon , my family and I started attending the LDS church , I would say when I was like maybe five or so , like it was really early on and then we became an active about middle school , I think , and from there , like with my parents , divorce and everything , I became atheist , agnostic . I went back and forth like I was believing , you know , universe , karma , whatever , something maybe , was there maybe guardian angels or something , um , but then also not believing in anything like nothing's there . So I'd go back and forth . And then it was bizarre because I ended up attending a Quaker college for my master's degree and so they had like these little New Testament books mini versions lying around or they'd have scripture on their wall or , you know , they would pray before some meetings and this and that , and I'm like I feel so out of place here Am I going to be like smoked down or something ? But that college was absolutely phenomenal . And now I regret that I wasn't more spiritual and religious back then , because I think I would have appreciated the campus a lot more .

Faith, Growth, and New Beginnings

Speaker 1 7:03

Anyways , I digress , it wasn't until I landed in the hospital December 2022 . And I'd always joked like coming out of the hospital . I joked that that was my like come to Jesus moment in there and that , you know , that was the only presence , was like God being there in the hospital room with me and helping me figure out what I needed to do with my life , that I needed to continue living , and all this and that showing me who I needed to live for , that sort of thing . And it was just a joke , it was just . You know , people always say you have a come to Jesus moment and it wasn't until my dad sent me a text at the end of July 2023 and said hey , would you be interested in going to church with my stepmom and him ? And they were doing this event . It was called At the Movies , if you know , life Church . They do this every summer and they jazz up the lobby to look incredible . They take well-known movies or sometimes even not well-known movies , and the pastor , craig Groeschel , pulls out messages and relates it to , like you know , the Bible and God and everything . And he my dad said that I think he would really enjoy the live music because , being a musician myself I play piano , I play violin , I love live music and he said , just , would you be able to ? Would you want to go ? I think I think you would really enjoy it . And I remember I got that text .

Speaker 1 8:48

I was sitting at my desk at work and my gut reaction was to respond no thanks , not for me . You know , like I had sworn off church . I had a lot of church hurt and religious trauma . Being a queer person myself , you know always seeing the how religions treat other people who are different from them . Rather than being inclusive , they're very exclusive . So there was a lot of like . You know , I had a lot of feelings , but then , before I responded , I said let's take a moment . We are trying to turn over a new leaf in our recovery .

Speaker 1 9:28

I had been through my life coaching , certification and really becoming more self-aware , wanting to pursue growth , wanting to pursue knowledge , wanting to just be more open and curious about things , and so I ended up texting back . I said you know what ? Yeah , let's , let's go , let me do it . And from then , that like first Sunday , it was the last at the movie Sunday that they had in 2023 . And it , like that message was everything I needed to hear as I was , you know , stepping into my coaching businesses and it was talking about , you know , having faith and staying committed to your purpose and your passion and doing the thing when it feels so scary .

Speaker 1 10:16

And I attended their sister's event in September . I started volunteering . I was so like hype about their baptism Sundays and I went to my first ever Bible group and I got really close to the people there and watched the message every Sunday Not , you know , still not believing but , as I said , you know , I kept hearing like this , this knock on the door , like God's knocking , and I was too afraid to answer and I was fighting , fighting , fighting . And my life group bless them . They were a group . They are a group because I still attend . They are a group of fabulous women who were so patient and understanding and compassionate in my journey to find answers and every question I asked . They didn't get scared , they didn't judge me , they didn't , you know , kick me out for , you know , like , how could you question this or whatever ? And like some of them said that it helped them grow deeper in their faith to really , you know , kind of analyze and look at it and with all of that , I finally made the decision to be baptized April 7th of 2024 .

Speaker 1 11:45

And going back to my you know joking of , I had my come to Jesus moment in the hospital . I absolutely now fully believe that he was there with me and that the peace I was eventually able to feel in that solitary confinement emergency room was the peace he was giving me . And finding life coaching was his way of putting me on the path to help others who were like me , who just felt overwhelmed in emotions and , you know , wanted to live but weren't sure how and didn't want to live anymore like this , but still wanted to live and just just helping others put that calling on my heart and , um , I am so thankful for my life , church , family and for growing deeper in faith . I am still healing , you know , some church wounds and things like that , but , um , it's just been such a blessing , especially in this time of upheaval , personally and within the world . There is truly nothing like God's peace . And I can't explain why I'm feeling joyful Because , again , I don't have an income right now . I cashed out my retirement . That feels scary , but I'm I fully believe that that's what he was guiding me to do and I had known for a while that I needed to leave my job . We had the cyber incident in 2022 .

Speaker 1 13:20

And even before then I kind of completely lost faith and trust in upper management , just from things that I had learned or , you know , saw for myself , and that commitment never really came back to me , like I love my job and I love the people I worked with , but it felt at odds . You know , when you feel that difference in priority or whatever , and with my autistic sense of justice being very , very heightened , it felt really wrong and it felt at odds with me . But it was comfortable , right , and you stay in your comfort . So I was casually looking but I was like I'm not going to leave , this is comfortable , it's a steady paycheck , I know what I'm doing , it's comfortable , it's steady , it's routine . And not until this year did it kind of come to a head , really starting in September , when my body began to remember the trauma from two years ago with my grandpa and just with .

Speaker 1 14:31

You know all the things that had happened two years prior where I needed to step away and take that leave of absence and as that leave continued , I recognized that this was God's way of separating me , because I wasn't going to do it myself , and so this is the hard break that I needed , to be like , okay , you need all or nothing . Here's all or nothing . You're leaving this job and you're not going back . And I know some people don't understand it . Some people do , some people are very excited for me , some people are not very supportive , but it is what it is , it's what I needed and , um , he gives us what we need , not what we want , and , um , yeah , that's kind of my , my testimony in a nutshell .

Speaker 1 15:22

I didn't anticipate this first episode coming back in the new year to be about that , but hey , uh , he puts on your heart what you need to say , right ? So , with that being said , I absolutely want to get back in the rhythm of recording these regularly and being present again with this . It feels weird holding this microphone . I'm actually physically holding the microphone this time . I don't just have it sitting on my desk and I'm using different audio software , so hopefully it will be better . I tested it and it sounded a lot clearer than Audacity that I was using , so hopefully those that will sound better to you as well .

Speaker 1 16:12

Again , very new to this . I think this is what our seventh episode . So I have lofty goals for this year , and that is to get you know some guests on and just geek out with you , talk about what's on my , my heart , talk about what's on my in my mind , in my head . Maybe you relate to it , um , maybe you're just like , oh my gosh , I , I don't want to listen to her anymore . I don't know . We're just having fun . This , this is this , is fun , right , like this is supposed to be for fun , and hopefully , hopefully , it would like resonate with somebody . You can relate to this or yeah , I don't know . So that's all I think I have for today . I'll stop it there , since this is already getting to be close to 20 minutes and I had only anticipated , maybe just like a little , hi , hello , I'm back , get ready for some more episodes . So I will end it there .

Speaker 1 17:19

I do have a free webinar coming up If you would like to attend . It's called who Are you Really Discovering and Embracing your Identity , and it's going to kind of be toe dipping into the coaching method and program that I did personally myself and going through my life coach certification and how it tremendously helped me in my recovery and just my journey for growth and curiosity and a better relationship with my emotions and myself . So I'm beyond excited and scared to do this . It will be January 20th at 2 pm Central Time . I will leave a link in the show notes if you would like to sign up In the meantime . I also offer one-on-one coaching . With this coaching program , I also offer six freestyle sessions for coaching and you can find all of that . I think I linked my website in the show notes too .

Speaker 1 18:21

I got to check all this crap . It's been a while . It's been a hot minute , so I don't even remember how we end these things or if we ever came up with a particular ending . Really need to do that . But until next time , stay safe , stay warm depending on where you are , because I'm in Kansas and it has been freezing cold the last few days . I have just been cooped up inside . So stay safe , stay warm . You are loved and I will catch you next time .